CU MUTHAFUCKA!!!

I've been back at Cheyney for 4 days, I guess. My return has been bittersweet thus far. A little before winter break had ended, I had a falling out with someone who I had considered to be one of my closest friends. We decided to reconcile but we haven't been speaking much since Monday afternoon. In addition to that, I was forced to realize that my best friend since childhood wasn't quite who I thought she was and I've been left to wonder what, if anything, should happen to our relationship. Add to this nice mixture about a tablespoon of homesickness and the bad habit of unnecessarily dwelling on negative things and let sit.

I feel like I'm on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster today and I hope it doesn't persist. I think I've been extra sensitive because I'm a bit fed up with people's BS, and the desire to just go somewhere is killing me. I'm starting to get a little desperate and would gladly go ANYWHERE if I had the means to do so. I'm hoping to participate in a Study Abroad Program in the fall and spend an academic year in Japan. The only things that might hinder me are a lack of funds or not being able to receive credit at Cheyney while I'm away (cause Lord knows I am not trying to spend any extra years here). I really hope things work out though. I've been wanting to go to Japan and learn Japanese for around 7 years or so and it seems I'm being pulled more as each day passes. I like to imagine what I would sound like speaking Japanese and, I must say, it sounds pretty darn awesome in my mind. I also entertain the thought of pursuing a career in Japanese hip-hop. I've never tried to rap or even write a rap in English (except for this short thing I did with a friend's little sister. At the time, I thought it was pretty decent and so did she, but someone else read it and didn't agree, apparently), but based on what I've read about hip-hop in Japan, I think I could do it. Afterall, I can do anything I put my mind to with Christ.

Anyway, I think a more realistic career goal would be to use my knowledge of Japanese to translate books from Japanese to English. I would also like to create a site that features the English lyric translations of Japanese songs. There's a lot of those sites around now, but they always do a lot of pop and rock. I rarely find translations of songs that I adore (which is predominantly Jhip-hop and R&B) and I can only imagine how many other people feel the same way, so I would like to do all of us a favor.

I guess I'm done blogging for the evening. I'm feeling creative, so here's hoping that something will come from this mood.